I am too much of a nature
lover to let beautiful scenes like this go unappreciated. I was
washing dishes at my sink when I noticed this gorgeous sunset through
the kitchen window. I fell in love with it, and had to share. My
albums are full of natural art that I have taken of the heavens
above. A lot of them may seem duplicated, but actually every picture
I have posted is one of it's kind. This sunset I posted today was
taken last evening, It reminded me of a huge fire in the distance. I
had to say good-bye, I'll see you again tomorrow night. Within
minutes it was dark outside.
I went to bed hoping I could quickly drop off to sleep. It didn't happen, and like so many nights I fought with my pillow for hours. The last time I looked at my clock it was almost 3 o'clock. I don't take naps during the day, so I don't know why I can just sleep about four hours out of the 24. And that is not without waking up 3 or 3 times, and going to the bathroom. Amazingly, I always feel great when I wake up in the morning usually about 6 o'clock. I have tried several different things people have suggested for me to help me sleep, but nothing has worked. I absolutely refuse to take a strong drug to make me sleep. Almost every time I fall asleep the dreams start up. My life has been like this every since I lost my husband six years ago. I sleep in the same bed we slept together in for fifty years, excuse me, the same bedroom, but a different bed. I have changed mattresses a few times. Many times I reach over to touch him, but when I fully wake up I am the same old lonely person I've been for several years. Nothing will ever change that, because I cannot give into change. I am strong, and mostly happy, but I do have to work at it daily, and be very cautious not to get on the wrong road. I truly want to stay the better-half of my deceased husband, like he always told people that is who I was. That statement is more true now than ever. I really am just one-half of who I used to be.
I do count my blessings at night instead of stars, but sometimes it seems like there is more blessings than stars. I just have not yet been blessed with sleep. I am so thankful for a loving family who mean everything to me. I can't think about going off and leaving them, yet I can't think about any of them going off and leaving me. I hope for that great day of Christ's return for his children so we can all go up together. If not I am sure there will be something just as good that I don't know about.
God Bless
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